January 22, 2008

Before

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I slept all night. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

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Ashley Hansen said...

Did you write that? Its Beautiful! Wow... Sniff Sniff. You inspire me!

Ashley Hansen said...

Wow! Did you write that? Its Beautiful! Sniff, Sniff... You inspire me!

Kelli said...

No, I didn't write that. Saw it on another blog actually and stole it! I thought it was really great.